A woman's pain. A woman's worth. A woman's heart.
As this life of mine goes on, there is one thing I realized. Life will continue to go on and on no matter how you feel. Life will not stop just because you are getting tired of it. It will not get any easier just because you find it hard to live. It will not pause just to wait for you to get back on your own feet. Life has numerous drowning obstacles in which you have to face forcibly. It gives you the chill just by thinking on how you could possibly surpass it all. It is now quilted in me how cruel this world was, is, and it will ever be.
At this point, my life has always been an entertainment to some of those who are probably reading this by now. Well, this is another show which I dedicated to them and to those who have known me.
This life has made me realize this fact. There are 3 kinds of people who can truly leave an irremovable scar within you - people who know you externally, people who thought they know you best , and the people you thought who know the real you but don't.
Strangers can only pinch your heart but it will never affect you the way people you know can.
People who know you externally can only judge you by their naked eyes. These are the type of people who only care for the result and not the cause. They know you by your name and sometimes by your face but they know little about you. They smirk at your failure and clap at your success. Hence, you don't pay much attention to whatever they have to say to you. You might hurt a little bit if they criticize you but you tend to don't mind and not take it seriously.
Mostly people whom you call "friends" occasionally are the people who always think they know you best. They tend to be there when there's a huge scoop about your life, they offer unsolicited advice and sometimes, people who always observe your every move and wait for your downfall belong to this group. These people are somehow important in your life. You laugh with them and make memories with them. You share passion and dreams. You see them often and tell stories about each other. Your relationship with these people are not too deep yet not too shallow. Whenever they say something about you, you take it as a constructive criticism. Most of the time, they make you feel loved, yet, they can also make you feel worse. With their malicious mind and mischievous choice of words, they can stake your heart, make your day miserable, and push you around the corner.
Truly, the people you love the most can destroy you the most. It is a man's nature, to care, to love, to trust and to admire. Yet, these obliviousness are the reason why we get hurt. Your family whom you thought you can count on, your true friends whom you thought can understand you all the while, your relatives whom you thought can support you all the way, they all belong to this group.
I hate to admit it but I was a victim of this ignorance. I trusted too much, I cared too much, I admired too much, I loved too much. In the end, I cried.
My heart burst. The person I admired the most broke my heart. We used to be close, and now, everything's wrecked, judged me as if ___ knew me only externally.
Still, I took all the blame, I might hadn't and couldn't lived up to their expectations.
I could bear all the pain inside me, but the thing is, I couldn't shut my mouth for the people who had misjudged my love.
I have written this so people will know that I am sick of all the rubbish judgments and endless issues flying around. Stand your ground. Fighting for yourself and respect is not a hideous crime.
You may know and may not know me, but I just want you to be firm with your self-worth.
